Just a Rant...and a Really Great Song

Disclaimer: this is me rambling and ending somewhat mushy, but whatever.

So lately I've been thinking a lot about life, about the past and about the future. While at times I long for the past (who doesn't!) and the seemingly carefree days of my earlier youth, I also find myself excited (and nervous) for the future I have ahead of me. A lot of things are uncertain for me right now. I have a good, steady job, but doubt I will make the music industry my lifelong career, I have a print journalism degree that I dabble around with by volunteering my time to SLUG Magazine and I have a fledgling of a photography business that I love and pursue in any extra time I have.

In the recent past I have been nervous about what my future holds for me, but for the present, I feel confident in myself and in my options. The best personal reassurance a person can have is self-confidence. I also take comfort in the life I have ahead of me with my best friend-my wife. Throughout my life I've created a lot of problems for myself by thinking too much or reading too much into things, but this time my thoughts have led me to a wonderful state of mind. While typing away at work not more than a few moments ago and listening to my Billy Joel mix, I sat back and listened to the words and stopped working for a second while I absorbed each word. As I soaked in the words and tone of the song it seemed to be a culmination of the conclusion my thoughts, as of late, have brought me to and also expressed my feelings and inspiration for the future and how I can get to where I need to be-one word: Hallie.

Billy Joel: This is the Time
We walked on the beach beside that old hotel
They're tearing it down now
But it's just as well
I haven't shown you everything a man can do
So stay with me baby
I've got plans for you

This is the time to remember
Cause it will not last forever
These are the days
To hold on to
Cause we won't
Although we'll want to
This is the time
But time is gonna change
You've given me the best of you
And now I need the rest of you

Did you know that before you came into my life
It was some kind of miracle that I survived
Some day we will both look back
And have to laugh
We lived through a lifetime
And the aftermath

This is the time to remember
Cause it will not last forever
These are the days
To hold on to
Cause we won't
Although we want to
This is the time
But time is gonna change
I know we've got to move somehow
But I don't want to lose you know

Sometimes it's so easy
To let a day
Slip on by
Without even seeing each other at all
But this is the time you'll turn back and so will I
And those will be the days you can never recall

And so we embrace again
Behind the dunes
This beach is cold
On winter afternoons
But holding you close is like holding the summer sun
I'm warm from the memory of days to come

This is the time to remember
Cause it will not last forever
These are the days
To hold on to
But we won't
Although we'll want to
This is the time
But time is gonna change
You've given me the best of you
But now I need the rest of you